it’s me, it’s mine
Yesterday, I had the whole day free and the weather was nice, so I peeled myself off the couch to go take photos of fall color at Cherokee Park. When I meet new people and they find out that I am a photographer, they always ask me what my favorite thing to photograph is, and my answer is nature. In my graduate program, we were lambasted if we pursued such a basic subject. Photography should *mean* something, my professors insisted. Capturing beauty and form wasn’t enough. If I were trying to make a living as a fine art photographer, it probably wouldn’t be. I’d need to do something unique. But I’m not trying to make a living as a fine art photographer. I don’t mind a struggle, but that’s a struggle too big for me.
I drove my car to the park and walked all around. I started at one end, and walked the loop. At my first stop, a pond by the golf course which is always lovely in the seasons, as I walked toward the loop, I saw another photographer standing in front of a couple with a baby.
"Gootchie gootchie goo!" they said, trying to get the baby to perform.
Props to all the wedding and family photographers of the world, because I tried that. Weddings are fun, but extremely stressful and hard to do alone and it was hard enough to get clients to pay enough to make it worth my while, much less enough for me and a second shooter. And family photography- ughhh. I don’t like it, and because I don’t like it, I’m not good at it. I’ve done it, and will do it for dear friends, but all I could think as I walked past the group yesterday, was “oh thank god I’m not doing that.” I’ll leave it to those who have the passion for it.
I wandered around, and I took about 30 photos. I felt I wasn’t taking enough, but what I got sufficed. I uploaded them to my computer and processed them with Lightroom, which I’ve had for a few months, but have not had time to use. It was really nice to spend some time with my own computer, and my own projects. It’s nice also to not have the pressure to create. I can do it when I want to, for no reason other than just because.